Confessions of a Tattooed Soul

I've got a lot on my mind.

Monday, June 14, 2010

"Healthified" Blueberry-Lemon Tart



"Healthified" Blueberry-Lemon Tart

Crust
1/3 cup butter, softened
3 tablespoons packed brown sugar
2 tablespoons fat-free egg product
1 cup Gold Medal® all-purpose flour
Filling
1/2 cup lemon curd (from 10-oz jar)
1/2 cup fat-free sour cream

1. Heat oven to 400°F. In medium bowl, beat butter and brown sugar with electric mixer on low speed until fluffy. Beat in egg product until blended. Beat in flour until dough forms. Press dough firmly in bottom and up side of ungreased 9-inch tart pan with removable bottom. Prick bottom thoroughly with fork.
2. Bake 10 to 12 minutes or until light golden brown. If crust puffs in center, prick with fork. Cool 30 minutes or until completely cooled.
3. In small bowl, beat lemon curd and sour cream with wire whisk until smooth. Spread evenly over crust. Refrigerate at least 1 hour. Just before serving, top with blueberries.

What is “Healthified”?
We've replaced ingredients with great-tasting alternatives to create better-for-you recipes that are just as yummy as the originals.
Success
Because the crust will sometimes puff a little in the middle during baking, pricking it again after baking helps "deflate" the puffing. One or two pokes with a fork should do the trick!
Substitution
Use raspberries or strawberries in place of the blueberries, or any combo of the three, for a berry good way to take advantage of seasonal specials.

Nutrition Information:
1 Serving: Calories 200 (Calories from Fat 60); Total Fat 7g (Saturated Fat 4 1/2g, Trans Fat 0g); Cholesterol 30mg; Sodium 80mg; Total Carbohydrate 31g (Dietary Fiber 1g, Sugars 18g); Protein 2g Percent Daily Value*: Vitamin A 6%; Vitamin C 4%; Calcium 2%; Iron 4% Exchanges: 1/2 Starch; 1 1/2 Other Carbohydrate; 0 Vegetable; 1 1/2 Fat Carbohydrate Choices: 2
*Percent Daily Values are based on a 2,000 calorie diet

Saturday, June 12, 2010

The pain of wonder.

I mourn for the solace of the arms that could hold
And the love he could give
And my eyes, whose tears sting
Like the acid of the rain
That falls in the melting of my heart
In the silence of my mind
That rips me apart.
The advantage in this game
In this war that is played
That destroys every bit of sanity I've found.
The peace he could bring
With the eyes that cut deep
And the words that shred through my thoughts
The lonliness that burns
As my bleeding stomach churns
As I scream
And I beg to release me
From this pain
Love me forever whole & true
Or not at all
Each night through
Don't leave me to wonder
And wander alone
These dangerous thoughts...
For the love that I mourn.

NHRA Story » Accident claims life of Alcohol Funny Car competitor in Englishtown

This is so terrible, tragic. All my respect and condolences to the Parker family, his race team and his fellow racers.

NHRA Story » Accident claims life of Alcohol Funny Car competitor in Englishtown

Friday, June 11, 2010

Broken down

I go to bed, but I do not sleep.
My head hangs heavy above my heart.
The pain so intense
I no longer feel.
Broken down and tear stained cheeks
Blood shot eyes, I hide my face.
You can see my pain but you cannot feel
How deep the wound
that will not heal.

My major 80's moment

Jeff. You'll never read this, I know you, BUT, no matter what... this is it. I'll always love you.




You should've seen by the look in my eyes, baby
There was somethin' missin'
You should've known by the tone of my voice, maybe
But you didn't listen

You played dead but you never bled
Instead you lay still in the grass
All coiled up and hissin'

And though I know all about those men
Still I don't remember
'Cause it was us baby, way before then
And we're still together

And I meant, every word I said
When I said that I love you
I meant that I love you forever

And I'm gonna keep on lovin' you
'Cause it's the only thing I wanna do
I don't wanna sleep, I just wanna keep on lovin' you

And I meant every word I said
When I said that I love you
I meant that I love you forever

And I'm gonna keep on lovin' you
'Cause it's the only thing I wanna do
I don't wanna sleep, I just wanna keep on lovin' you

Baby, I'm gonna keep on lovin' you
'Cause it's the only thing I wanna do
I don't wanna sleep, I just wanna keep on lovin' you

Keep on lovin' you, baby

© FATE MUSIC

Thursday, June 3, 2010

Nope.

I cannot, take anymore.
Of anything, from anyone.
I am always there to help people
solve their problems
and pick up their own broken fucking
lives and when I fall apart Im on my own.
And to some, I point it out & get
the classic response "Oh" or "I know"

Well ya know what?
I don't get paid enough to fix your life
in fact I dont get paid at all.

Now, I am dealing with shit of my own.
Big shit.
So please don't start with me.

AS for real life & whats happening...
I don't think I can deal with much more there, either.
And apparently no one is listening when I beg
to PLEASE not wake up from this sleep.

Fucking sick sadistic universe.

Monday, May 31, 2010

3 years ago, this day.

Sometimes, someone so dynamic walks through your life...
that when they walk away, the energy they had still resonates
through every fiber of your being.
so that when you close your eyes you can still feel them there.
Remember their touch, their smell and their smile.
and you can’t help but smile, …. Back at the memory.
and you look beside you as you see their footprints...
far to strong to fade away.
And still... I live on. My life a map of everything I am, and ever have been, remembering sights unseen and uncried tears, and tracing the laugh lines they left behind.
T.Paul's body may not be here... but he's more alive than ever.

He ... is... like the wind. Everywhere. Only alive and well and on his way around the world and back.... schooling *us* on what it is to be unabashedly happy.... without reservations. Its amazing.....
But, then… as I said, sometimes, someone so dynamic walks through your life...
that when they walk away, the energy they had still resonates
through every fiber of your being.
so that when you close your eyes you can still feel them there.
Remember their touch, their smell and their smile.
and you can’t help but smile, …. Back at the memory.
and you look beside you as you see their footprints...
far to strong to fade away.
Copyright Faith Lowery 2010

♥♥Timothy Paule Ste. Marie♥♥
"Sorrow rebuild me as I step out of the light Misery strengthen me as I say my goodbyes I heal my wounds with grief And dream of you And weep myself alive" - HIM


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The only person to ever loved me unconditionally died May 31 2007.
His name was T.Paul Ste. Marie... he was... is... my best friend. Three years later, I still find myself forcing breathe between the tears, But I close my eyes, and still see him there.

After he died, too little too late I learned to appreciate every moment of my life. Until my last breath my friend, missing you always.





Where The Moss Slowly Grows

And so another journey has come to an end
Another moment passed
that will not, will not come again
Resting in the shade of oaks,
so it has always been
And it's true that i'll miss you
but i'll see, i'll see you again
I'll see you again

Embrace, this joy this pain
Don't miss this chance, it will not come again
You mean more than you may ever know
Don't linger where the moss slowly grows

There are so many things I wish I could've said
It might not have changed your mind
but sometimes we just need hope alleged
Above the mountains shadow
the sunset timly glows
The oaks will look down on our heads
forever and our dreams will be no more
We should not ever let them go

Embrace, this joy, this pain
Don't miss this chance, it will not come again
You mean more than you may ever know
Don't linger where the moss slowly grows

I remember those summers
stretched on without end
Future comes so loudly and the oaks,
the oaks were silent then
Silence forever, conversations in my head
Might not have changed your mind
but if we'd spoken
Here's what i'd have said
Here's what I would've said....

Embrace, this joy this pain
Don't miss this chance, it will not come again
You mean more than you may ever know
Don't linger where the moss slowly grows